| Let's hope this dream isn't prophetic... |
[Jul. 10th, 2006|09:00 am] |
I had a dream last night about an ex-girlfriend. It revolved around a medical checkup in which they discovered some sort of lesion or tumor in her uterus. They decided she would need to have a hysterectomy. As I recall, she wasn't very torn up about it because she has no interest in having children, but I was struck with unnaturally profound grief because I realized what a good mother she would've been when she finally calmed down. Even now that I'm awake, I find the idea extremely upsetting. I truly wish her better than that, even if she wouldn't give me the same courtesy.
That being said, I just can't seem to get my blood flowing today. I shouldn't be as tired as I am today. It feels like I've been drained of all my good karma. I suppose I deserve it after arguing with her like I did. It's clear that I inherited my stepfather's hot-headedness. It's going to take a lot of effort to fix that, if I ever can.
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